Treasure in the depths...

Hello, this is my attempt to type my 4th blog in a month; I have four unfinished thoughts waiting in my draft box.  I often think of things I just have to type, then I start a little and the motivation or focus is gone to complete them.  I've noticed that my focus for writing comes from being upset.  So strange, takes me forever to write if I'm not mad about something.  We will see if I get around to publishing this one. 

Today is preparation day for Sabbath.  The last few Sabbaths I have not done the deep cleaning I would normally do, I've been saving that for Sunday morning so the house will be spotless for our showings.  There is no bread to bake because it is the Feast of Unleavened Bread.  I have some store bought matza for the children, my husband and I are low carbing it throughout the season; however, we have made sure we have a little unleavened bread each day.  Today is "Good Friday" so Lily is off school; really I have very little to do today.  That is in huge contrast to all of the running and meetings my husband has planned for today. 

I am certainly at a place of new beginnings.  I can't help but daydream about the plans for the future.  One thing about Larry and me, we have been open to different opportunities for our future.  Many times we will have a few opportunities before us and will be excited about them all, but ultimately, God is the one that narrows down the options and makes things very clear to us.  He has in so many ways, more and more of those testimonies I told you about. 

So here we are; house on the market...but where will we go?  I need a job....but what will I choose.  Our Sabbath fellowship is starting with a blank slate... How will God use us?

I have kept a journal for years and I always have these types of questions.  It is interesting to go back months later and see how it all played out.  Often the thing I ask for now, I am thanking God for redirecting me later.

All of the Psalms are wonderful and wise but here is a good one for my current situation.  Psalm 20:5 A plan in the heart of a man is like deep water, But a man of understanding draws it out.

I feel like I have all of these options and opportunities in the depths of the ocean that is my soul.  Will I make the effort to seek YHWH and His understanding so that I can draw out the plans He has set before me?  I suppose the underwater scuba gear I would use to retrieve these treasures from beneath would be prayer, fasting, and reading scripture. 

I started this blog in search of a perfected Barbra.  I'm confident if I make the effort and use the right gear I will receive the perfection I seek.  Maybe not by the time I'm 35 but eventually.  I'm confident in this because I am confident in the God I serve and I trust wholly in His instruction. 

Thank you Master for letting Your Son shine a light into the depths of my soul, so that I might see the sparkle of the treasure hidden deep within and be able to draw it out to be used for Your glory. 


Philippians 1:6 For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus.